Time is something you can never get back. Surround yourself with the right people.

First I want to start off by saying this isn't some dying declaration.

This isn't the typical "I learned I'm dying or someone I know died, this reminded me to spend more time with my family" post either.
(I'm sorry in advance I'm sure that is going to offend someone, but that isn't my intentions. Just trying to explain that this isn't that type of post. Please keep reading.)

This is about something I started to write on paper before I found out about the cancer.
I've put a lot of thought into it and I've changed how I speak about this many times now.
First it was something along the lines of "I can't stand technology".
After much thought and discussion with a few people it's more that I can't stand *personal* technology.
A study came out in May, 2015. Human attention span now less than that of a goldfish. It's down to 8 seconds. With that in mind I do hope you make it to the end of this post. I timed myself reading it to the end, it took me 3.5 minutes. I have faith you can make it to the end too!

I was going to be a hypocrite and post it only on FaceBook to get the word out but I decided with around 17,500 unique visits to the blog that maybe I could reach more people here. Putting it on a blog still makes it a little hypocritical still, but welcome to the world in which we live. (Yes, there is still a link on FB. About half my traffic comes from there.)

I don't even know where to start... Facebook, cell phones, email, passwords, laptops, tablets, or should I go as far back as Myspace, what about pagers?!

Personal technology problems, in my opinion, started with the smart phones.
Email has been around for a while, myspace, FB, etc...
But when the smart phone came around it was easier to access these things, you could do it on the go.
This is when the problem really started.

Instead of listening to a whole conversation if someone gets bored with it they grab their phone.
Now there is many more things to grab their attention instead of the one on one interaction right in front of them. Some are getting very good at pretending to listen but then you can tell they have something else on their mind, like why their phone just made a noise. What are they missing? Is someone more interesting trying to get a hold of them? I'm not the first to say, people listen to wait for their turn to respond, they don't just listen to hear the story anymore.

Someone close to me has recently got a terminal diagnosis. We have been spending quite a bit of time together lately. Telling stories and just talking. A reminder of the "pre-personal-techonology" era. While I don't want to get into this too much at the moment it was the push to finish writing this and post it. I started it in July 2014 but couldn't find the right words. Out of respect for this person I won't be saying much more at this time. After I'm given permission there is quite a story to share from them as well.

Something I've posted on my FB page a few times that holds dear to my heart, surrounding yourself with the right people. It's said that you become most like the 5 people with whom you spend the most time. Think about this. Who have you made friends with at work? Outside of work, what 5 people do you see the most? Do they support you? Do they push you to grow? Are they sincerely interested in your life? If not, it may be time to change your circle. Are you proud of them? Are they successful? Do they have drive? If not, it may be time to change your circle. Make sure that other souls that get your time respect and appreciate it. Time is the one thing you can give someone that you will never get back. It's the most precious thing you own. If they don't make time for you why should you always drop things to make time for them?

Okay, okay, enough sap and crap.
Health update:
Last night I slept on my stomach!!! This is the first time in 14 months I've slept without my pillow fort. The first time I've slept on my stomach since my biopsy. The first time I got what I considered a pretty decent night sleep without relying on something to help me sleep. Sleep is soo important and makes a huge different. I haven't cried a ton at the doctors but I know I've cried more about sleep to the oncologist than everything else combined.

Last Thursday I finished another prescription!! Only one left.
I have 2 more herceptin treatments and that's basically the end of the plan.
Staying on tamoxifen at the moment, but not sure how much longer I will do that.
They want me to be on it for 10 years, that just seems like way too many pills to me!
I will address that one when I see fit.
After the last treatment on July 20th my last crutch will be gone. That's a bitter-sweet thought.
Shortly there after I will get my port out.
I have convinced the plastic surgeon to do it as opposed to the regular surgeon. I've seen him more times, plus he agrees, plastic surgeons make better scars!
Who's gonna hold my hand for the port removal? I've been told it's a bitch!